You’ll notice I haven’t posted anything for about five months. That’s because during this time I have, in 25 words or less:

Left my husband, sold my inner city apartment, bought a shack in the mountains, kicked my depression and gotten back to my happy hippie self.

Now that we’re all up to date, let me tell you about my fabulous country life. It begins with no TV – what a joy. Of course I have my laptop for the ever-important Doctor Who, but beyond that I keep things quiet and simple. Lots of tapestry and classical music; I’m building a chicken coop for the rescued battery hens I’m adopting next month; and I have two naughty puppehs to keep me entertained. I’m working two days per week in the office in the city, and two days per week from home. The commute (5 hour round-trip) isn’t too bad, actually, because it gives me bonus reading and writing time.

Ah yes, my writing. I knew there was a reason I had this blog. Lately I’ve just been journaling in private – no-one really wants to see me process my separation in public, do they? (I’m sure my husband doesn’t.) I really have been writing every day, but instead of putting it out there, I’ve been keeping it for myself. Depression-wise I seem to have things well under control, which I think comes from letting go of a major stress in my life, and moving out here to the mountains where I have slowed down my pace of life and gotten back to simple pleasures.

Of course I still have bad days (who doesn’t?) but I’ve learnt to deal with them in much more productive ways. Yesterday, for example, I was a bit blue, but instead of moping I took teh puppehs out for a long walk in the fresh country air, which perked me right up. When I get stroppy I calm myself down with some tapestry or meditation, instead of going on a rant. And I’ve been spoiling myself a bit since I left D – new shoes, lingerie, that kind of thing, which helps with a little confidence boost.

Oh, I nearly forgot! Since I last wrote anything here, I shaved my head! It looks fabulous – feels so authentically me. I have been getting back to authenticity lately. It’s so important for me to be myself, after so many years of trying to be someone I’m not (and for the wrong reasons). I’m working hard on letting go of what others think of me, and instead just doing what makes me happy. I’ve realised (finally!) that I can’t live my life for other people – this includes my husband, my mother and anyone else whose opinions I took on board way too often.

So that’s it for me and my quick update. I will be back soon with actual blog posts about real stuff.

Love Kelly x

posted by Kelly
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